Monday, April 26, 2010

There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you- Maya Angelou

frida kahlo-

leaving is not enough; you must
stay gone. train your heart
like a dog. change the locks
even on the house he’s never
visited. you lucky, lucky girl.
you have an apartment
just your size. a bathtub
full of tea. a heart the size
of Arizona, but not nearly
so arid. don’t wish away
your cracked past, your
crooked toes, your problems
are papier mache puppets
you made or bought because the vendor
at the market was so compelling you just
had to have them. you had to have him.
and you did. and now you pull down
the bridge between your houses,
you make him call before
he visits, you take a lover
for granted, you take
a lover who looks at you
like maybe you are magic. make
the first bottle you consume
in this place a relic. place it
on whatever altar you fashion
with a knife and five cranberries.
don’t lose too much weight.
stupid girls are always trying
to disappear as revenge. and you
are not stupid. you loved a man
with more hands than a parade
of beggars, and here you stand. heart
like a four-poster bed. heart like a canvas.
heart leaking something so strong
they can smell it in the street.


Jackie Wilson performing Higher And Higher

I have a compulsive need to watch this everyday.

Sometimes ya just can't hold back the river...

Sometimes there is just no way to hold back the river."
-The Alchemist

Mes petits bébés...

28 lil fuzzy ones.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Thursday, April 15, 2010

“It was comforting to know I had fallen and could fall no farther."- Sylvia Plath

This was the Eulogy my Apa wrote for his mother and my grandmother, Evie. We were unfortunately unable to attend her funeral. In this I find a beautiful summation of my father.

Besides giving me life and love, Mom taught me to persevere. The adage she repeated often, and the one that has stayed with me all my life is “the best things in life are free”. Another memorable one is: “the more the merrier”, a reflection of her generous, inclusive nature.

Mom is the one who taught me to dance and keep a beat. I am sad that the vibrant beat of Mom's loving heart is gone, but I feel her spirit surrounds us still.

With infinite gratitude,

Mark Francis Lamont/Marineau~ Mick

"Nothing is stronger than habit" -Amatori

there are leaves, rivers and trilliums
dirt paths and rocks and sticks
and i have a box of tangerines, two packs of cigarettes
and enough cherry soda and lemonade to last me at least two weeks
and that's all well and good
but i still miss you.

Please Come Back I'm Sorry About What Happened Before

I don’t feel small and forgiving, I feel proud and slightly tender...After all, all girls is bitches.

“ I know I have a heart because I can feel it breaking."
-The Wizard of Oz

Laurelhurst and Drive to My Parent's Round II...

Sometimes it's okay to spend a day alone.

The Thing Is

to love life, to love it even
when you have no stomach for it
and everything you’ve held dear
crumbles like burnt paper in your hands,
your throat filled with the silt of it.
When grief sits with you, its tropical heat
thickening the air, heavy as water
more fit for gills than lungs;
when grief weights you like your own flesh
only more of it, an obesity of grief,
you think, How can a body withstand this?
Then you hold life like a face
between your palms, a plain face,
no charming smile, no violet eyes,
and you say, yes, I will take you
I will love you, again.

-Ellen Bass

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Portland International Raceway (PIR Round I)

Bike race... Hearts in the sky and shit.

(*Cam got 3rd.. wooo....)

Let me tell you 'bout the birds and the bees
and the flowers and the trees
and the moon upperbove
and a thing called love

Let me tell you 'bout the birds and the bees
and the flowers and the trees
and the moon upperbove
and a thing called love

Let me tell you 'bout the birds and the bees
and the flowers and the trees

'bout the birds and the bees
and the flowers and the trees

'bout the birds and the bees
and the flowers and the trees....